Aug 26, 2009

i wish i do more

everyday as I wake up at dawn
my mind starts working the moment I yawn
there were many things to do, o dear
that's why I hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn't have the time to sit longer to praise the Lord
to me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd

since school I had busy every minute
completing my tutorials and handing it in
my studies took up most of my life always
minimum, time I did have to Allah to pray
to many things to do, and zikr is rare
for Allah, really had no time to spend.

when I grew up and started my degree
studying all day to spare my future
when I reached home I prefer to have fun
I chatted on the phone, on the yahoo messenger
but I didn't read much book of heart, the Quran
I spent a lot of time surfing the internet
sad to say my faith was falling flat.

the only time I left is weekends
during which I prefer window shopping with friends
or better yet I prefer to sit back and enjoy my cds and dvds
I couldn't spare time to go to usrahs and daurahs
I'm too BUSY that's my BIG excuse.

I did my five prayers but did quickly
after prayer I didn't have time to sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn't have time to help needy ones
I was loaded with works as my precious time run.

my life was already full of stress
so, I didn't counsel as muslim in distress
I didn't spent much time with muslim that can advice time
because I thought, doing so won't help me much
it will be just a waste of time.

no time to share with none muslim about Islam
or even to my other fellow muslims who have rights on me
even though I know, inviting cause no harm
no time to do sunnah prayer at all
All this contribute to my iman fall.

I'm busy here, I'm busy there
I have no time at all, that's all I care
I went for religous lesson, just once in a while
well, at least I do some, my nafs whisper
coz I'm too busy making a pile.

I worked all the day, I slept at night
too tired for tahajjud and it seems no right
to me, studying as a living was already though
so, I only did basic deeds but that's not enough.

no time at all, to admire God's creation
no time to praise Allah and, seek His compassion
although I know how short is my life
for Islam I really didn't strive.

Finally the day comes, when the Lords call for me
and I stood before Him with my life history
I feel so guilty because I should have prayer more
I should have invited other muslims to Allah cause
I should strive more to learn about my deen
isn't that what a muslim live for
to thank Allah and do more good deeds
and Quran is for us to read.

now at Judgement day, I'm starting to fret
I wasted my life but it's too late to regret
my entry to paradise is depend on my good behaviour
but I have not done enough, not not did proper prayer
my "good deed book" is given from my right
an angel open my "book" and read out my plight.

then the angel chided me
o you muslim servant, you are the one
who is given enough time , yet not much is done
do you know your faith is loose?
saying no time is only an excuse
your "good deed book" should be filled up more
with all the good work you stood up for.

hence I only recorded those little good deeds
as I say this, I know your eye will mist
I was about to write even more
but I didn't not have the time to list.

~ i wish i do more ~